drowning in the numbness of nothingness!

Just when u think life is beautiful n everythn is workin out just the way u want it to n it culdnt have been better,

life comes n says "bhooo gottcha!" and u find urself standing amidst a hurricane of things, tht r happenin so fast u cnt even imagine to catch up.

i really want to know wht makes it happen? and i really want to know does life ever remain monotonous? i ws under the impression some ppl jus live ordinary lives with no happnings n simple things... i guess with time im realizing thts not the case.

with age, v do becum mature, but v also become more sensitive. v grow stronger only for the world to c, but deep inside we r vulnerable kids.

sitting in ths dark corner wth my jasmine tea, i recollect life and i find it to b nothing less thn a million little pieces of a mirror, and i realize im not me anymore, i dnt recognize the person that i was.

and yet again i find myself falling into the numbness of nothingness. is it the fear of losing everything? or the hurt of betrayal? or sheer exhaustion? .........life as i know it ...is a bitch!